I am so angry today. I hate it. I don’t do anger well. I either lash out with a verbal attack, pout or eat chocolate: none of these are good for anyone including me.
As if life doesn’t give us all enough to be angry about, (right now for me it’s lawyers, injustice and a high school teenager with typical “attitude” and lack of responsibility) then along comes the many forums, social network sites and interview questions.
I made the DIRE mistake of going to the Amazon Community discussion board as David Lifton had left me a message saying he had posted some things there. I decided to check it out. There was a comment about my book and looking for my grandfather’s film. It was nice! (sorry DL, I didn’t see your posting) Anyway, I wrote a nice thank you reply to the person inquiring as to the loss of the film and was bombarded by rudeness from a group of men (I think) who believe the JFK assassination was solved with the findings of the Warren Commission. I go to most of these places to learn.
But there’s so much I still haven’t learned.
I still haven’t learned to take Tink Thompson’s advice and develop a thick skin. I still haven’t learned that it’s not my job to teach the world, though I was a teacher, so this one is very hard for me. I still haven’t learned that I will never convince people of the truth if they don’t research the truth for themselves. I still haven’t learned there are very sad people in the world who love nothing more than to argue, interject themselves into horrible times of history and to believe what people say without checking it out. I still haven’t learned that some people relish taking importance away from the topic at hand and navigating the argument to something that it shouldn’t be. Who cares who slept with Oswald? Who cares who slept with Kennedy? What we SHOULD care about is why we were lied to (as has been proven over and over) and WHERE IS THE NIX FILM?
People want to fit in. They don’t want to rock the boat. On the other hand they do. Why else would there be a Jonestown? A David Koresh? A Charles Manson? A Warren Report? Watergate?
Back to my anger….
Here’s a sample of what I dealt with the last few days at the Amazon Forum: I said (in reply to “what happened that day”)
That there was a conspiracy to lie to the American people and the world as to what really happened that day.
In reply toyour post on Feb 16, 2015 10:19:26 AM PST
Last edited by the author on Feb 16, 2015 10:19:36 AM PSTDebunker says:What “really” happened that day?
Your post, in reply to an earlier post on Feb 16, 2015 10:25:16 AM PSTGNJackson says:The 35th president died; innocent people were intimidated, threatened and treated like subservient citizens; evidence was lost, not handled correctly or kept as souvenirs; the body was moved from Texas where the murder occurred so no true investigation could be completed; people lied, were overlooked, stories embellished or ignored; officer JD TIppit was killed; witnesses were not interviewed; crime scenes were contaminated. That’s what “really” happened that day.
But instead of questioning the above, I get this in reply:
In reply to your post on Feb 16, 2015 10:26:21 AM PSTbarbW says:Since you give speaking tours about this topic I’d like to ask you why you think people admit to being part of the conspiracy?60 posts since I was last in here. Is there anything else new?
Your post: Feb 16, 2015 10:31:04 AM PSTGNJackson says:barbW, I don’t know if you’re speaking to me, but if so, these are just my opinions. There are sad people out there who would like to interject themselves into any historically relevant topic: The JFK Assassination, 9/11, the Holocaust. Not being a psychologist, I cannot speak as to what disorders they may have, but in my estimation they have mental/ego problems. Others I believe, may truly know something of the case and realizing their mortality is ending, feel the need to appease their consciences. I don’t have the answers, just a desire to find the truth and my grandfather’s film. I should think all of you, no matter what you believe, would agree that missing evidence is horrific and should be found. Isn’t 51 years enough time to wait?
Then this:
With all due respect Gale, it is you who are advancing the position hence the burden is yours not Hank’s. Thus, the burden is on YOU, to establish who these people are and why they might be important and point to facts that support your assertion. It is insufficient to state … instead of actually supporting your burden, “please do the research yourself since you don’t believe me.” That simply isn’t good enough in the real world. I find that to be a common refrain from those who indeed cannot support their assertions with facts. The merely state “oh, look it up yourself.” Sort of like a weak attempt at punting. So if you say it matters, prove it and disclose the facts that support your assertion and let others judge. That is the essence of truth.
But perhaps, truth isn’t the goal. Surreptitiously marketing your work in the face of people like Hank et al. , will sort of take the gas out of your tank. I am sure your bank account means well, but this murder has long since been solved. But in your favor, you have found there is money in propagating this fiction.
I would also suggest that if you want to address self-esteem problems, take it up with Ben Holmes who is one of the most obsessed self-absorbed people I have ever met on the net. I mean manners are always a bit weak on the net, but BB is a deliberate _$$h0!e who has definite self-esteem issues. Deeply disturbed. But address his self-esteem problems as well. Hank just doesn’t believe you, no more than that. Read some of Ben’s posts and then tell me you wouldn’t slap him silly if he said as much to you in public. Hmmmm?
Where pray tell, tell me WHERE was I promoting my book? And now that I’ve had a few days to think about it, what’s WRONG with promoting my book? How else will people know that there is an important film missing in the JFK Assassination case. There were more films than just the Zapruder film.
It angers me. It hurts me. But this post is the worst. I’m letting you all know right now. If you want to hurt me and my family, just say what this poster on that site said:
Kevin T. Draiss says:
I could have been a LOT meaner and said she is making money off of her dead grandfather.I suppose the next time I’m in Texas, I’ll get on her tour where she talks about Oswald’s rooming house. You know, the one you see in the Nix film?
Making money??? Seriously???? Would you like to see my tax return? I won’t go into the rudeness of the rest of his comment but isn’t it sad? I’m angry. I’m angry that as an author of a non-fiction work, I realize I’m to be held accountable to my research and what I say. But you know what? As a patriot, you TOO are to be held accountable for not forcing our government to tell us the TRUTH. You are to be held accountable for propagating misinformation and disinformation. I fight each and every day. When is the last time you did? Our 35th president was murdered. Do you even care anymore?
